I’ve recently come to terms with the fact that my creative work is spirit-based. Profound, compelling feelings and thoughts move me; it's all quite intuitive, from my writing to modeling to even my childcare and community work.
People often ask me what I do, where I get my inspiration, or why I do certain things. The answer is simple: I “just be” and try my hardest to execute (certain) ideas and visions I get. It’s all led by my passion and my spirit.
I am gifted and guided.
I need to genuinely feel something to pursue it or highlight someone.
I’ve been told it’s a gift, that I can masterfully use my words to observe or discuss someone or something.
As I began to explore and exercise this gift, I realized some of my best work came from the direct and distinctive feelings I’m deeply guided by.
I understand when building a community/support system, word is bond, as well as consistency.
However, only when I attempt to participate in capitalism or influencer culture do I become utterly disinterested, unmotivated, or completely consumed by something far more critical in my life.
In my last blog, I said I’d do more music-related content about black music month and Juneteenth. Since publishing that blog, I have not done so. Typically, I’d battle and punish myself for not following through on “content” related things. Thankfully, over time, I’ve come to accept my purpose and what’s meant for me to do.
Instead of beating myself up this time, I sat with this, tried to make time, and indulged in research for motivation, but it just wasn’t sticking. I switched my approach and avoided negative dialogue about myself and my creative journey.
I’ve kept my blessings and what I know to be accurate at the forefront of my mind, and one day (today), it came to me: being a spirit-based creative also comes with the spirit of nonconformity.
Regardless of how profitable a series of ideas may be for me, if it’s not for me in this season, it just won’t happen, and I’m okay with that because it allows me to be patient and at peace.
As I wrote this, I realized that, in addition to just being, I must act on things and possess enough discernment to know what to act on, write down, or pass along, and ultimately keep moving forward.
If not, I create a distraction, a blockage, by never having the motivation, time, or energy to follow through.
I’m now looking for more ways and tools to help increase my profit in ways that don’t take me off my path.
If you were looking forward to the June music-related content, don’t trip; stay connected.
“I’m not a brand, I’m not a business, I’m a f*cking person.” - Seer Beyond Sight